Sorry I'm venting for a moment

I hate when the feeling of loneliness creeps back into my life just when I thought I let it go. Sometimes I don't realize it until late at night when I'm lying awake unable o sleep. Other times I notice it throughout the day if I'm at a restaurant and see a lot of couples or if I turn on the TV and their are movies on about love and relationships. The worst part is I can't stop watching, in fact I end up watching more movies about love and happiness because it gives me that reassurance or at least a glimmer of hope that it will happen for me someday. I feel like I'm ready for that stage in life, the honeymoon period where everything is new and we just can't be away from each other too long, and then the phase where we know that we are meant for each other and we're just comfortable, and then the marriage where you are bound forever and get to work as a team through life. It's not easy that I know and some people may ask why I'm wishing my single days away but you have to understand that everyone around me is getting married, my brothers, my former roommates, and just friends in general. Don't get me wrong I'm happy for them and I love weddings but there are times I feel like I'm at the breaking point. I've never had a guy make me feel special, never really been on a date, never been kissed the list goes on I pray to God that he will help me be patient and learn that I can be completely satisfied being single, but it's definitely taking time and days like today I'm ready to just throw up my hands in frustration. But I know God will get me through days like today, and I'm a tough cookie. So to anyone that reads my blog I apologize for venting I just needed to get this off my chest and now I'll go back to being happy :)