Sorting through my thoughts

As I sit in the room I called home for over 2 years and reflect on the events that have transpired since I left North Carolina in June I marvel at how much has changed and not changed all at the same time. I was so excited to come back to North Carolina because i haven't been back since I left but I didn't expect to feel such longing and sadness. As soon as I stepped outside the doors of the airport and breathed my first breath of North Carolina air I found myself saying "this is home" it just felt right. North Carolina is the place where I really grew into my own skin, the place where I discovered my true passion for social work, the place where I forged friendships that will last a lifetime, the place where I've gone through personal struggles and come out on the other side, the place where I'm treated with respect and courtesy with no one expecting it in return although respect and courtesy is always reflected back. The scenery is the same and the people are the same, but I've changed, I've truly begun to cherish my time here and while I don't want to go back in time I know I want to come back and make a home here in the future. I can't begin to think about what my emotions are going to be like on Sunday so I'm just going to take it a day at a time, maybe even an hour at a time and just enjoy every single moment because soon I'll be back to reality and will have to deal with the fact that I no longer live in North Carolina and that for now it's not in the cards but remind myself that I will return and be a resident of North Carolina once again.