I'm engaged!

I'm engaged, not in my dreams, not in the future, but RIGHT NOW! So weird but so awesome all at the same time :)

Season Finales

It's that time of year, the time of year when TV packs a huge emotional punch known as the season finale. In just one hour, sometimes two you'll feel a whole range of emotions from happiness to sadness, curiosity to anger. For me I never want season finales to end because I'm able to escape if just for an hour or two and lose myself in the characters and their story lines, take all the emotions I have from my life and put them in the show. I especially love when season finales make it ok for guys to cry in front of girls. I'm never sure why this is a trait that I admire, I've never seen my dad cry that I can remember but I feel that a guy crying actually shows strength because they trust the other people or person enough to let go and just really let their emotions out. Anybody have any thoughts on season finales and guys crying in front of girls?

Answering questions

My friend Kylee commented on my most recent post asking if I am enjoying Michigan and if I miss my friends. The answer to both of those questions is yes, but with some reservations let me explain

I am enjoying Michigan but I think it mainly has to do with the guy that keeps me smiling on a daily basis. Though I grew up here I'm not severely attached to anything in Michigan. I've always been kind of out of place. From a young age I knew Michigan wasn't where I was meant to be for the rest of my life, it's not something I can really describe or pinpoint but it just never seemed right. For now Michigan is where I live but I don't really consider it "home" even though I've been back almost a year. My heart is in California and North Carolina. I can envision settling down in either of those states for a longer period of time and starting a family.

I MISS MY FRIENDS MORE THAN WORDS! Sure I learned how to develop friendships from long distance at an early age, Molly and I only had a few months before she went off to Olivet and I still had 3 years of high school left. But, after being at Olivet and establishing lifelong friendships, the type of friendships where time has no affect, where you can be completely transparent without being judged, where you know that if you really needed them they'd drop whatever they were doing and come even if they were states away, it's super hard to be away. Plus, it's been difficult to establish those same type of friendships here in Michigan, or any friendships for that matter. I spend most of my time on the phone, skype, or Facebook connecting with all of my friends from olivet who are spread all over, from Califronia, Oregon (that's you Kylee!), Chicago, Ohio (Amy!), and Missouri. Part of me wishes I could be closer to them but then maybe I wouldn't cherish their friendships as much.

And that's pretty much it. Happy Monday!

So much changes in a year

Life is so different than it was a year ago.

Now: I live in Michigan, I'm sitting on the couch in my own apartment, I'm a full time social worker, and I'm a girlfriend.

A year ago: I lived in North Carolina, I rented a room out of a house, I was unemployed, and I was single


At least once a day I marvel at how much I'm not in control and how much God IS.  It could be something as simple as paying the bills and something as complicated as working through the aspects of my relationship with Andrew. Thank goodness God is in control!


Just my random thought for the day happy weekend friends :)

Sorting through my thoughts

As I sit in the room I called home for over 2 years and reflect on the events that have transpired since I left North Carolina in June I marvel at how much has changed and not changed all at the same time. I was so excited to come back to North Carolina because i haven't been back since I left but I didn't expect to feel such longing and sadness. As soon as I stepped outside the doors of the airport and breathed my first breath of North Carolina air I found myself saying "this is home" it just felt right. North Carolina is the place where I really grew into my own skin, the place where I discovered my true passion for social work, the place where I forged friendships that will last a lifetime, the place where I've gone through personal struggles and come out on the other side, the place where I'm treated with respect and courtesy with no one expecting it in return although respect and courtesy is always reflected back. The scenery is the same and the people are the same, but I've changed, I've truly begun to cherish my time here and while I don't want to go back in time I know I want to come back and make a home here in the future. I can't begin to think about what my emotions are going to be like on Sunday so I'm just going to take it a day at a time, maybe even an hour at a time and just enjoy every single moment because soon I'll be back to reality and will have to deal with the fact that I no longer live in North Carolina and that for now it's not in the cards but remind myself that I will return and be a resident of North Carolina once again.

So long for now

I don't post much anymore, my thinking is that maybe when I get a boyfriend and get married I'll have a lot more to say that is worth posting for others to read. For now my life is a simple routine that doesn't have anything that others would find exciting and that's ok. So I think until I enter a stage of life where the happenings are more exciting than the fact that I got a new high score on a Just Dance 3 song I will leave blogging to my friends and let this blog go. If I come back I think I will start fresh with a brand new blog (same blog address) and new blog look. For those that have kept up with me, thank you. It's not goodbye forever just goodbye for now.

Good Night and Good Luck

I've moved!

I have moved into my own place! I haven't had a chance to unpack everything so I don't have pictures yet, but I will get around to it someday. The best part about moving is that I'm only 5 minutes from work. The worst part is waiting for maintenance when things break, especially on weekends. This weekend my shower broke so I'm already back at my parent's house until tomorrow evening. Thankful I have somewhere to go though when things like that happen. Once I get all settled I think I'll blog more regularly.....I hope.